Friday, August 12, 2011

The Green Eyed Monster

I would like to think that I could simply be happy for people who "just get pregnant" and then I hear about a friend who is and the jealousy starts.  I have no right to be jealous, wishing for what someone else has doesn't mean just the good parts of their life but the bad too, but when I hear about someone who is able to have sex with their husband and get pregnant, well that's hard for me.

I would love to be able to get pregnant the old fashioned way.  Some romance, love, and maybe even an orgasm, lol.  Instead I get needles, doctors, and the ever sexy trans vaginal ultrasound four to five times a week.  (Well when we are cycling that is, we aren't at present and don't plan too until next summer at least)  Having to use fertility drugs, doctors, and procedures takes all the love and romance out of having a baby.  Yes you still (hopefully) get a baby - or two- out of the deal, but it's just not the same.  You can't just "decide" to have another baby.  It involves testing, blood work (seriously they take vials and vials of blood), ultrasounds, more testing, meetings with the doctor, and the every wonderful "sample in a cup" provided by your DH.  I envy the people who can say let's have another baby and have sex to do it...........on the other hand in my house sex is just for fun, so I guess there are benefits to that!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Annual meeting

Today was the annual meeting for the boys Early Intervention therapies.  All in all it was a good meeting.

N was increased to OT 6 times per month (he was at once a week), his PT remained the same (twice a week), DI remained the same (once a week) and his DI is doing the paperwork to request a speech evaluation.

Z's OT was eliminated as he has caught up to his adjusted age.  He will continue with DI once a week, and the DI is doing the paperwork for a speech evaluation for him as well.

I am a little perturbed that its such a hassle to get a speech evaluation.  I mean really, my son's are (almost) 13 months adjusted, (almost) 15 months actual and do not say "mama" or "dada" or any other words at all.  Obviously with N's CP he is at higher risk for speech issues.  Everyone's automatic response is "DI". Well, DI is NOT speech.  But because it is cheaper than paying for a speech therapist its their automatic answer until a child is 2 years old.  My service coordinator was a little argumentative with me, until ALL of the therapists joined me in saying that both boys need an evaluation. (We really have great therapists). 

I just don't get it.  Are that many people requesting speech that they have to be so hard assed about having someone do an evaluation?  Its not like my boys are 8 months old and not talking.  Or a year old and not speaking in full sentences. They aren't even saying "mama" or "dada", and I'm not even looking for them to call me "mama" or my husband "dada" just for them to say the word.  And its just an evaluation!  We aren't even talking about actual speech therapy yet. 

For N, because he was evaluated by an oral motor/speech pathologist in June, we have to wait until September 3rd to submit the paperwork again.  The evaluation was for eating issues (although she touched on speech as well) as we were concerned about his sometimes not getting his food in his mouth.  We weren't sure if it was due to a weakness in his mouth/tongue or if it was a limitation with his hands/arms.  Apparently once a particular discipline has evaluated a child, they cannot do an evaluation of the same discipline for three months. As for Z, we can submit his paperwork anytime.  So his DI will be working on the paperwork and hopefully within a month or so an evaluation will be approved and we will have him evaluated. 

Sometimes though, I just want to scream.  I do everything I can for my boys, we schedule every therapy that's recommended and work hard at the homework we are given.  Why exactly is it so difficult to get them the things that they need?